Insane-Hearts;

Monday, July 02, 2007

To my two dearest friends

Sorry for backing out last minute.
I'm really just can't bring myself to go out and enjoy when I’m feeling so low. I don't wish to spoil everyone’s night by being so blue…depressed and what not. Most probably I did spoil the night by not going. Sorry.

I'm not in my best state of mind now, most likely the worst ever but I’m trying real hard to pull myself out of this mess that i burdened myself into. I guess its best to tell you gals what going on with me so that maybe my weird actions could be justified and if I ever do step beyond the line of sanity, you gals can pull me back.

I in the process of acknowledging and healing old wounds am just during this process figured so many things out. And I’m quite frightened by how much I ran away from them and tried to bury it deep down hoping it will never reappear ever. There are so many characteristics of me now that are the result of my refusal to admit them. I don’t really know who I really am now.

Frankly, I’m really disappointed with myself for being such a coward running way from my problems. But now facing them, I can’t help having the feeling of shutting myself from everyone. I know I’m not supposed to do that I’m not running… just seem like I’m fighting with the devil of my old bad habits that is draining me from enjoying what there is out there. I guess I need some readjustment and time before I’m back to normal. Please bear with me till then.

Love,
mun

go crazy;

9:32 AM

Y three gals
three wackos
ONE FRIENDSHIP
One Love

"It brings me back to good times,
memories galore passing my mind.
I can't help but laugh slightly
as I think about our friendship."

:) 8teen
:) 29 Sept 1988
:) love cookies

wq and fm are my best buds man...not exactly best buds cause i hv none... but they are one of e best ppl to have as friends... fm is e cold, cool calm one while wq is e sassy, blur, tech-savvy one and i'm the noisy, sarcastic,irritating one amongst us... well, enjoy reading the blog n chill... :D

:) 8teen
:) loves CHOCOLATES
:) loves nites
:) loves walking in the rain

known lixin and wei quin since sec 1... had lots of fun & laughs together... more to come :) luv u gals!!!

:) 8teen
:) 2 March 1988
:) Star-lover

well.. the trios are mun, li and me! known lixin since primary 5 and since than.. we've had a hell lotsa fun together! hahas.. know mun thru li.. basically we're crazy people who love hanging out with each other! hehes.. u guys rock! forever friends (:

1) Cleaning void deck with plastic bag & water

2) Walking in painful heels the whole day

3) Taking the wrong bus which never stops

4) Being lunatics at the underground

5) and the list goes on